.:Thinking Aloud:.

oh well im back here agian… the tile for this post has been coined random thoughts and its all because all i can think of now are random thoughts, i can’t seem to focus on one topic in this blog. anyway as im doing this blog im giving a friend a headache in answering my questions for him as he being the hotseat of our online forums… kudos to him! a bit of a stressful this month has been for me and it has been giving a toll in my health… my doctor has given me an advice to undergo tonsilectomy (an operation where in they remove your tonsils) so that i could prevent any other worst things like heart ailments due to my frequent tonsilitis… oh well… that’s that… anyway im still in the thinking process… most of the people who know me personally would tell me "will you survive?" i mean not the operation and all but the aftermath… i’m not allowed to speak for about 3 weeks or so… so imagine that… me? the silent one??? hahaha!!!

anyways, news about me is that i’ve finally recieved my performnace evaluation and it seemed that they considered me to become a regular employee… wow that would be my first… although there are still no contracts i’m allowed to use my leaves already… nice timing since there would be 2 long weekends with just 2 days in between kinda hassel for someone who will go to vacation like me… so good thing i had my leaves already…

well a lot has happend around here like bob being evicted sa PBB and that more than half of them are nominated for eviction… hahaha… like orange and lemons are said to be a rip-off… uhmmm what more… but i do intend to watch those pinoy movies that are showing in manila i think that is because of the cine manila.. i’ll give my reviews here in the blog after i’ve watched them…

i’ve been thinkin and i’ve thought of creating another blog here in friendster(in my first account) or in another blog site but it would focus more on food and food reviews. I thought of this since my no.1 vice would be eating… and i thought that it would be nice to share some thoughts comments and reviews on the restaurants that i would visit.

i’ve also thought of things regarding relationships, love, etc… like it is ok if you "like" another person eventhough you’re committed and that if the feeling is mutual both of you must be aware of your limitations as to not to bring about problems in the future. another is that i’ve just figured out to myself that i’m already sick and tired of reading/listening to topics such as "why are married men better than single ones and that why do single girls prefer married guys" please cut the crap! well, some more thoughts would be posted on a separate post… as i gather them all…

well a lot has gone through my head and it seems that i’m getting sleepy in thinking/gathering of thought so i ithink i’d leave this post for now and grab a pillow and doze off first… till next post!

inside your heaven

carrie underwood

I’ve been down
Now I’m blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it’s so amazing
Everytime I see you I’m alive
You’re all I’ve got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you’re breathin’ in
A soothin’ wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you’re breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I’ll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you’re breathin’ in
A soothin’ wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

sorry bout the title, i just can’t seem to think of anything that is fitting for this blog. i’ve posted make it real by the jets a while ago coz its a song that keeps popping out of my head and i can seem to relate to it. Isn’t it a bother that you seem to remeber someone whose special to you but can’t seem to talk to her? Like how you’d wish that she’s here and talking with her would seem like eternity… damn im getting mushy again… anyway, i just want to share some of the ideas i thought of during the day…

I’ve been posting to this online forum regularly since the day i joined in… what i liked about the forum is that its a nice place to hangout or if you just need some "petiks" time… people there seem nice and we all have a common interest (Gumimik) hehe… anyway, as i read the series of new posts today i saw this one post:

"Never fall in love with somebody who has hang-ups, somebody who never had the chance and probably will never have the chance of being with somebody they have been loving for the most part of their life…you’ll never be good enough, you’ll never be funny enough, you’re efforts won’t be enough, you’ll never be lovable enough for her to forget about him…you would have to compete with somebody she puts on a pedestal, you would have to always put on the best show whenever she is around, you would have to look like a fool waiting for her to tell you that she is finally over with him and that she is now ready to spend the present and start the future with you…"

it seems like i could relate to his sentiments… speaking from experience and it seemed to make sense anyway… well, we all make mistakes we might find love wrongly but soon love will come its way to you… there is no such thing as perfection in love, but in love there will always be happiness. (uhmmm… although not all the time… hekhek =P).

btw, another reason on why my post is a bit too mushy for my type is that i just can help wonderin why do i keep fallin for those who have hangups or SABLAY! some might call me "torpe" or a hopeless romantic but it seeems like i keep on fallin in love with the wrong person. The same reason why i can’t tell them my true feelings and keep on joking and joking… is it that im too friendly??? or im too "torpe" to express or tell what i really feel??? there are also times that we are often misunderstood for being just a friend than being more than a friend… anyway hope that it won’t happen again and that hopefully fallin in love next time around would be somewhat much better and hopefully i could gather the courage to step up and just plainly tell her… =)

well here ends my blog for today… whew its been a long one… hehe… well, gotta go to sleep… *signing off*

MAKE IT REAL
The Jets

Tonight it’s been a year
we met each other here
Here I am all alone
as thoughts of you go on

REFRAIN
Hear me cryin’ out to you
u said, "Never, never would I leave"
Here’s a tear from me to you
and maybe it will make you hear me

CHORUS
I loved you
You didn’t feel the same
Though we’re apart
You’re in my heart
Give me one more chance to
Make it real

In a dream you are here
U smile and hold me near
and in my heart I’ll pretend
that you are here again
REPEAT REFRAIN
REPEAT CHORUS

Give me one more chance to
Make it real

Here i go on another blog article. Damn its been quite a long time since i last blogged in here… Its been quite a f***king time that I’ve had to work till the wee hours of the morning at the office even on weekends and a holiday just so that f***king client can have what he (or should i say a she???) wants. Anyway, another client testing is on the way and wouldn’t it nice to just slack off for today. I might just blog again tomorrow whenever i feel i could think of new crazy ideas to share instead of the f***king rant… peace out!

Broken Sonnet
Hale

And now i concede
On the night of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

The clock on the tv says 8:39 pm
It’s the same, it’s the same
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

I’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

But still i see the tears from your eyes
Maybe i’m just not the one for you.

Well, another blog moment for me… te previous week was another not so good weeks that i’ve been having so to say… I’ve been sick  most of the week, it was that i wasn’t able to go to work because of a freakin flu and fever that had me home for 2 days… and a toothache that lasts a lifetime…  and just last monday morningi got an allergic reaction to the medicine that was used to relieve my toothache…  So with these things happening I’ve thought that i should keep myself fit since now i really don’t get enough exercise and i’ve been trough a lot of stress lately. So here’s a list of my fitness resolutions that hopefully i could cope up with… Btw, this blog is supposed to be due a week before due to my internet problems (madami kasi kaagaw!) Anyways here’s the list:

   1. Always be rehydrated, i’ve been cutting up on my fluid intake recently and this has caused me a bit of dehydration and fatigue so might as well keep on the liquids flowing.
   2. Eat a lot. We all know that passing meals is bad, so might as well keep my meals intact and on schedule.
   3. Exercise regularly. Well since i really didn’t enjoyed my last gym experience so might as well, use some of the exercises i learned to tone down my body. (god, i need to flatten my belly) Better yet go to a new gym that is cheaper and do the same routine i used to do.
   4. Swim. It helps build endurance, and is a great cardiovascular activity.
   5. No Stress Policy… Why stress it out when you can laugh it out!
   6. Bad habits are hard to break! but minimizing them might help…
   7. it is not bad to be a bit health concious
   8. get as much sleep as you can…
   9. Clean my room regularly. Cleaning induces sweating and develops strength by moving things and doing the chores…
  10. loosen up… being tight all the time, makes your life span shorter… =)